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2nd Last Chance

After several times being disappointed & heart broken, will you consider another many times' 2nd chance again to a same person that you used to love & give all your heart?

I'm sure of my answer this time. Do you dare to ask for another chance after you hurted someone who love & care for you much? Have you ever think of her/ his feeling? All because of your own pride or kiasu?

I know i am not perfect or good enough for anyone, but when i love someone I really give all my heart, times, caring and everything within me. Share everything of mine. But I don't think i deserve a treat like this. I think I really deserve someone better.

For me, if I love someone, I'll love him 200% ++. But when it come a day that he feel unhappy being with me or love on someone else, I'll let him go, sure, I will. Let him look for his hapiness. I love him that why i want him to be happy. No points of he is beside me but he is not happy.

"If you love someone, let her/him go.

If she/he come back, you are mean to be together.

If she/he doesn't come back, it's not mean to be at the first place."

GOLD MEMBERS

12JAN, we having a staff nite with theme of "Dreams of Gold". So most of us wear golds coz No Gold No Go!!
Unfortunately not all of us really enjoy the funs of having a theme party. Somes said wasting money for a stupid staff party. But i don't really agree with them. They don't know what is the fun in it.
The preparation, outfit... is a fun when u really look for it.
I'm the organizer president, of coz i showed them how much i put effort in it.
Looking for beautiful gold dress, gold shoe, gold eye shadow... just can't get the hair clip that i want. In the process of making myself totally GOLD, I really enjoy it. I designed how i want to be look like, the make ups....
Although we don't hav any price for best dresser but it is satisfy for me. At least i look sweet & lady that nite.
If next time, there is another chance for me organize again, hehe..
Collegues, see what I will do lah!!

GO, To The End Of The Road

Have all this come to an end? After a long hard time of building all these, I still can not make it mine... Sad? Anger? Disapointment? I feel nothing, i'm hopeless...
It was my choice, I can not blame to anyone. It's time to let go but.... why I still hold it back? I know the longer we did not make any decission, the longer both of us suffer....
I wish I can be cruel to him, at least thing can be done when it should be.
GOD, please give me a guidence, a direction, some hopes....
I have to live for myself, it's time for me to grow up from this kindergarden... It's time!

New Year 2007

This is the 1st time I celebrate the new year without him after 6 years being together.
He really broke my heart this time, very very hurtly.
I choose to runaway from him for fews day to get my self some personal space & times to think about us.
Just alone myself, sat by the seaside on the beautiful white sand, looking at the sea and waves.
I regreted, REGRETED this time for my wrong judgement.
I don't know how to make it right...

我想我不够爱你

曾经我总是追随着他的影子，依他要得方式过活。
他要一个可以使他放心远行，不无理取闹；我改变我自己。
然后再想有个思想成熟，独立不依赖他；不论于经济或生活。我也依了。
再来，不随便掉眼泪，坚强；我也许了。
最后，造就了今天的我。一切一切只因我爱他，只想看到他快乐，以一辈子相爱为目标。
可是他还是一次又一次的伤我。。。
两天前的暴风雨，指责我不黏他，不再哭闹得像不再爱他。又说我已远远超越了他，不再需要他。最后却哭求我别离开他。
当时，我真的真的很无能为力，无奈。突然发现，他还停留在原地踏步。在他要求了这么多却又要我回到以前的我。公平吗？？
觉得自己很可怜，只懂得无限的付出。有得到过他的回报吗？爱不是无私的吗？
那时候，我的心真的真的非常非常累，却又不忍心伤害他只因心里还有他。
当他一次又一次的问我爱不爱他？我沉默了。哭了，因不知道如何回答他。
我的心。。。凉得很，我做错了吗？依他要得方式过活，改变自己，最后还是我错吗？
生活上的苦乐，从没怨过他一句。从没要求他给我任何东西或物质享受，我还是错了吗？

依然是朋友

最近超级喜欢这首歌，大家都说我疯了；歌有另外的故事哦.

情人節的前一天, 他離開你身邉

只剩下你無止盡的想念

那一夜我陪著你你哭了一整夜

你是否知道我對他一樣很想念

直到有一天我和他碰面

在那間我們常去的咖啡店

才知道有些感受我和他誰都不曾說出口

我們之間隱藏了什麼除了我自己沒人懂

可是你你怎麼說你知道後是不是從此避開我

喔我一樣難過多希望我們不曾相識過

每次聽都很有感覺....

失落感

最近自我反省得好多次。对目前的生活真的真的非常纳闷，好像白开水没味道。不知道应该如何和他一起走下去。N次的沟通后，还是无法改变现状。他一律认为我太不知足了，要他给我一个完整的家又说时间没到。我还要为他等多久呢？

我无奈又如何？他说的全都是对的，我说的就没水准。超级大沙猪一个。

放弃又不甘心，为他守了这么多年。不放弃又很失落加孤单。怎么办？？？

STORM!! Episode II

Damn....!!!!!
What kind of boss will really act girly in front of his staff???
Can't believe he packing away most of the company souvenirs. Although he is still the boss here but doesn't mean that he can behave like a ......
Y can't he act like more pro & mature or giving us a good memories after he leave??
He just spoiled my respct to him. Totally crash into pieces.
He not even giving his staff 1 of the souvenirs as gift, if he dare to ask us for farewell party...
I'm sure no 1 will participate.

Something for U Big Boss: Don't come Back Again! This is not a place for U!

STORM!!

I don't know what is going on with my BOSS these few days. Making our life miserable!! Shouting nonsense in sudden, spam the working desk, blaming innocent employess.... what else he can do beside this?

He want the higher post, he got it and will be transfer soon to BKK but why he showing all the bad character in front of us? Don't he want us to remember how happy we are working under him? How generous he is? NO! NO! NO! Sure all of us will curse him even after he ciao.

Hoping the next one is a better person than he is. Is not, can't imagine at all!!

Fresh Air plz

There is a plan of going for Spa in Krabi or may be adventure in Cambodia but it never turn up so far. Want to go alone but I'm afraid; ask friends to join, either they want somewhere for shopping or not interested with poor country or old buildings/forest.
Arrgh... All of them are just too citilized to live in natural environment. Ask my darling to schedule some times for these, end up: Y can't pick somewhere v can enjoy eating? Not again to Thailand!!... (V been to Thailand many times as I work in Thai Airways)
Somehow, I just want to be alone in somewhere full of memories, stories, histories and quiet so I can really appreaciate of a culture. Guess I'm just not mean to be a "Tomb Raider"
I really need to made this trip to give myself some fresh air! I think I'll be drowning with my works soon. Hope my leave will be approved before this X'mas. :)

Angels in my ofc

On the left name: Ang Tau(Racheal) and right name: Ice. So normally I'll call them one shot ANG TAU PING or Ice Kacang. They have very very cute charater such as teach u how to post to take photo, went u talk to some1 handsome how u should stand or put your hand...... Some are so funny.

But, my ofc is full of some seniors that.... (can talk more on them, if not I'll get killed). So rumours of these 2 sweet sweet girls will get memo lah, warning letter lah, resigh .... all kind of nonsense.

In my point of view, because of this ofc is too full with some old fashoined, traditional yet not up to date thinking, that's why our sales can not put in new yet creative ideas to push our local market. Recruiting more youngters like Ice Kacang may be some how will inspire the old folks of something new. But that's only what i think cause had to keep this myself if not.....

In a Mess..:(

Dear buddy:

I think I'm too much in works and causes me all these unwanted behaviours that really annoy myself.
I missed going out having some fun with u guys but too tired too get out from my bed. tell u what, during the 2 days of the Deeparaya holidays I was at home in my bed 70% of the time and the other 30% infront of the TV; Off my handphone and didn't answer any door bell. Feeling very lazy and want to sleep most of times.
Today, come back to work again as all the bosses coming back too.... Hoh.......I feel like taking MC, noway, there are much thing to be done before 1stNOV.
Really donno why had put myself in this.
I'm thinking ...... no, NO. Life goes on!!
Anyone that seeing this, word for u: 努力！加油！

Distance Romance

Almost 2 weeks we apart form BKK, but I still get in touch with Carla, Oa, Maya, Kyaw & Us quit often by email. We exchanging infos about the rest that I might too busy to contact. (Sorry frens, will try my best to sent regards at least once a month) I found out some love's seed growing between fews people that we all know. May be some couple is not a secret anymore but there are still secret remain....(Ha Ha, want to know who?? Sorry can't tell if not will seeing me lying dead tomorrow)

That's the power of the greatest LOVE. I really hope these long distance romance really work out. But it is really romantic when u know there someone thinking & care for you from the other side of the globe. Far away but feel very near inside. It give us a chance too to become more independence & responsible because we do not want that 'someone' to worry too much & feel presure of these, am I right??

Oh, It is really cute. US, I will pray for you everyday & hope your dream come true. BE STRONG, buddy.

Touches Of THAI

1st week of July, I was sent by my company to Bangkok H.O. for a training course. Suprising is the class was big that we have more than 60 people from all Asia including 1 from London.
The 1st few days, I am very quiet and shy to move around then became homesick. Almost cry & want to go home. But things changed on the 3rd day, the understanding between my new friends & me is deeper & stronger. Then we start to hang around like buddies (we are buddies!!)
Then when it's time for us to leave, everything become dificult & hard breaking.
I really missed u guys.
Thanks OA, PEK, US, Paul, Lanny, Carriee, Michelle, Sam, Carla dear, Maya darling, Kyaw, Knott, Sasa, Tina, Dao.........everyone in class. Apreciate the great times we had.